I netflix 'n chill. And by that, I mean, I literally do just that. Being in a relationship and living with your partner will do that to you. Here's something I wrote while we were netflexin 'n chillin' not too long ago :
We're out every night, in largely promoted spaces filled with souls seeking a human connection. Connecting with the unique pores of God's body. Connecting the teardrops in the ocean so that we can swim unanimously. Connecting the evaporation to a cloud so that we can slowly explore the world together.
The other night, I could not sleep, and it was raining outside. I wanted to tell you, I wish you were here. At the time, I was in hell, exhausted from the pursuit of perfection. It would be better to pursue self-acceptance and self-love. I could retire from self-inflicted judgmental and unforgiving thoughts. Maybe the rain would stop and I'd have sweeter dreams at night.
You are flawed and imperfectly beautiful. You are human. A conscious living creature of God. I don't have to miss you when you're laying next to me. Or when you're thousands of miles away, because my heartbeat lives in your chest.
I tell myself this, like a purchased notebook from a local pickle making bookstore, and by default, filled with affirmation quotes "You exist because you are loved. You are loved because you exist" As though love is the answer to our existence. I believe it is. If you don't believe it, I challenge you to tell me how one could be so inhuman.
Do you desire a disconnect in your act of living? Perhaps, there was a time when you were a child, pure at heart, and you found something that made your whole world light up. Go there to that inner child and bring it to your adulthood. Let yourself love what you've been missing. That love can be a person or passion. Maybe that passion is the reason to your love and to your existence.
I thought I've always wanted to be the girl in the beautiful dress. But I'm not. And I'm not just that. I'm a woman with a soul who just happens to own a pretty dress, and I'm still climbing trees and scraping my knees in it and laughing without inhibitions because my body feels amazing when I do. You can be the girl in the beautiful dress, I won't stop you from standing in the corner, but I'll invite you to come play in the mud with me.
- Monica Reyes